Chapter 39: Candace Owens States Kamala Harris is MKULTRA

CHAPTER 39,

SAT NOV 2, 2024

CANDACE OWENS STATED ON ALEX JONES SHOW THAT SHE BELIEVES THAT KAMALA HARRIS IS AN MKULTRA MANCHURIAN CANDIDATE BETA SEX SLAVE.

 

I agree with Candace.  Why? Because I was trained as a child to be a beta sex slave.  In adulthood when I realized who I was and the program that I was in, I went on a journey to understand why, as a child my memories were a series of abject erasures.  

 

I was raised with a father and a mother, and three other children.  Two older brothers and an older sister. I remember asking my mother, Millie, why there were no photos of me in the family album as a baby.  She said she got tired of taking pictures.  I don’t believe that is what happened.  

 

My “family” kept secrets from me.  I found out at 17 after I left and moved in with my boyfriend Durrell, who as 13 years older than me, that my mother was gay, and that the woman who helped raise me, who I called my Aunt, was her lover.  I had no idea.  Why? Because many secrets were kept from me.

 

My father told me, when he was in a nursing home in Sunrise Florida, he had done something so evil that even God would not forgive him.  I said “God would forgive Hitler if he asked Daddy”, not knowing at the time my mother was a Hitler baby.  My “fake” father was 50 when he began having a family with my mother.  He had served in two theatres of War and served in Germany during WWII. Maybe that is where he made his deal with the Devil and MKULTRA.

 

My mother Millie met my father, in North Carolina.  He was supplying her father with white lightning for her father William's restaurant and was selling booze to backroom speakeasys.  Mildred, my grandmother was a singer and I believe she was beholden to the NAZI party at one point in  her life.  

 

Millie, Mildred’s daughter, and my “mother" was very beautiful and very smart.  She had always been gay.  She told me once her brother Norman raped her, her father raped her and her mother molested her pre-lingual.

 

I believe Millie was born in Dec 23, 1930, in New York.  She told me about when her family moved to the city and she had to move in the middle of the night and not knowing where the bathroom was or how to get out of her room. Her brother Norman was born in Jamacia Queens, New York, Oct 10, 1932.

 

 

In 1950 Milli would have been 20 years old.  Her mother was Mildred Baker Darlington, and in Norman’s obituary it states his father’s name was William Meyers.  The family had moved back to North Carolina from New York, where Millie then went to nursing school. I can only conjecture what school that was in N. Carolina as I have no records of my mother and have no family resources who will come forth with this information.  At this present time I believe she went to Duke University Nursing School in Durham North Carolina, and am assessing it was between 1950-52 as my older brother was born in 1952.

 

I found out in 2017 from my first husband Steve Xenos that a former agent who I had an affair with was my biological brother.  I was so angry I did not get to ask many questions and Steve died of a heart attack one month after I spoke to him, but eleven days after I spoke to my drummer Bob Bauman, who was in my band Big Business in California. 

 

Durrell Corry, was a quarter midget racer when he grew up in Mankato, Minnesota to a very wealthy family.  Durrell was 13 years older than me (just like my fake father was 13 years older than my mother) and was my first fiance' and manager.  Durrell took me to various studios in Miami and California.  Durrell had helped me put together a group called Touch of Class, a total crap three piece, and then I auditioned players for Big Business.  

 

 

Bob was my drummer in Big Business.  After I left Durrell in 1982, I continued playing in big business and Mark the guitar player took over booking the band.

 

Bob and Steve played together in bands in High School.  They were very good friends and both lived in the ultra wealthy Palos Verdes Estates in Palos Verdes, California.I met Steve, through Bob.  We were playing as a jazz band, and Mark booked us at a country bar called Sutters Mill in Huntington Beach.  It was a crap gig for a jazz band and at the time I totally hated country music.  By this time I had left Durrell and was living in a house in Newport Beach renting a room one block from the beach and three blocks from my brother David. Steve, I believe, was sent to me to be my handler.  Steve had his MA in psychology and was running his parents psychology business in Santa Ana, California off of 17 street.  Both his parents had their PhDs and I felt they were very evil people.  They lived off of Jeffrey Road in Irvine at the time.

 

Steve came to the gig at Sutters Mill every night, which was very strange.  That’s how we initially met.

 

THAT’S A LITTLE BIT OF BACKGROUND.

 

AT 58 I LEFT MY HUSBAND SAM AND STARTED ASKING QUESTIONS, LOTS AND LOTS OF QUESTIONS.  THESE QUESTIONS ULTIMATELY LED TO ME BEING ARRESTED, BEING MADE HOMELESS, BEING PUT IN A CRAZY HOUSE.

 

Before I was put in the crazyhouse, I was made homeless.  During this time, I traversed the United States, twice. I went to Durrell’s house in Lake Havasu, went to a funeral of an associate from the Delphonincs, reuniting briefly with my former band mates from the cover band BackStreet, competed writing my outline for Bradford and Valentine, started writing another tv series, and was journaling.  I went from church to church and was seeing Satanic references in the churches.  I was writing out thoughts that I was hearing, and deprogramming myself.  I was trying to understand recessed memories.

 

When I left Sam I prayed and asked God to reveal myself to me.  This was the unveiling.

PRESENT DAY 2024 NOTE

 

I recently moved from where I was living for six years and left behind the things I could not take with me. I left some of my work product behind. One of my writings came back to me through another person who told me they were sent my journal entries in screenshots. I made many entries in 2016 which I haven't yet posted, and these entries were made in various times, around 2017 before I went into the crazy house.

 

I am going to share those journal entries, leaving out “passwords” and last names.

 

When I was homeless I had gone back to Illinois and I was attending Bill Hybels church, Willowcreek.  I took pictures of the pictures and I was begining to understand these religious institutions, that as a child I thought were great places that housed “Jesus”, (i.e., where one or more are gathered…), were not good places at all. 

 

I was beginning to understand what the churches were actually being used for, and started researching the sex trafficking Pastors that were in this “business” of religion for the same reasons the phrasisees were, money, fame and fortune, and control, of people and governmental officials, like Senators and Presidents. 

 

I was acutely aware of my psychic abilities, but then so were the five men that were essentially handling me.  I was in contact with Durrell, who I had not spoken to in 40 years because he beat me, raped me, broke my ribs, drugged me and used me as a “cover” girl. I had been with Durrell since I was 17 and I left him for good in 1982, when I was about 22.  I was also in contact with John, at this time and was in contact with a person that I believe the "agency" sent in named George, who was a commander at the DAV. George told me he worked for the agency and he threatened me if I continued to talk about John that I would be thrown in a crazy house and locked up for a long time.  I was also in contact with Sam, who I was still married to, but who I had left after being with him 20 plus years, and I was also in contract with a person named Tony who had been locked up in a Federal Penn at one time and who was then volunteering at Willow Creek and who knew Bill Hybels, the Pastor of Willowcreek, very well, and who also knew, Durrell.  I was back in contact with Jeff Sadie, my guitarist from Big River, who knew my husband Sam.

 

I was in contact with pastors and rabbis, looking for answers. In my travels I was hearing voices in my head that I knew were not God and were not me.  I started writing down some of these thoughts to try to figure out what was happening to me.

 

MKULTRA is very strong.  It is supposed to last for the victim's entire life, and they are never to become aware of the codes, the instructions, or missions they were sent on.

 

BREAKING MKULTRA 

First you have to discover you are MKULTRA.  Then the discernment of missing time begins.  The MKULTRA with handlers is supposed to last forever.  It did not last forever with Durrell, however, it lasted longer with John, more than likely because as Steve said we are brother and sister.  Maybe he doesn’t know we are brother and sister, maybe no one told him, maybe he does know, maybe he is also MKULTRA. I just don’t know. He will probably never ever tell me the truth.

 

What would make this mind bond so close?  

When I met John in 1990 he looked familiar to me.  I believe I knew him as a child, and it is possible that it was his tbird, in 1977 that I ran into with Durrell’s Cord on Biscayne Boulevard.  I can not say.  Just that when I told Durrell, "all is not lost, I ran into a talent agent, and he gave me his card.” I handed Durrell the card.  That night Durrell came into the bathroom, I was in the tub, drinking a martini.  He ripped the card up, layed it on the counter and lit it on fire.  I said, "well I guess I won’t be using that talent agent."  John started his agency in 1974.  Its been in business for 50 years. Is it possible I have known and met John on many occassions, like when he had his office on Red Hill.  I can only conjecture. I have no proof.

 

I even told him, at one point, I feel like you are my husband, even though he was married.  I said you have to stop cheating on your wife.  If you are miserable you need to leave the marriage, which of course he never did.

 

You can say past lives, but there was some bond, that when I quit our band, and I quit, I was not fired, I cried for 6 months.  

John said to me in his office, "you know what I wish Penny. I wish you would marry someone that did not want to have sex with you and you and I could still have sex." I said "that's great John, only I am faithful in marriage."

When I met Sam, in 92, I told Sam that I fell in love with my agent and I had decided to leave my band.  I also couldn’t understand how John knew the things that he knew about me. 

In 2017 I met George Rodriguez, the former Commander at the DAV, met me outside of a Walmart I was at in Illinois. I gave him a card. He told me that he was doing a fundraiser for the agency and that he knew I was coming so he stepped down from his position.  He knew I was MKULTRA, he knew…. my blood type, I didn’t even know my blood type. It’s O positive.. 

 

At one point George told me to go to his place in Greyslake into the game room.  He chased me around the pool table.  As we sat on the couch he said a string of words.  I passed out.  When I woke up George had unzipped his pants and he had placed my hand around his penis. I didn’t understand what had happened.  I believed he said code words, which I was unaware of and I blacked out. I took my hand back and left. But I continued to talk with him. MKULTRA.

I asked George if someone sold him my “codes”.  Codes can turn you on and turn you off.  Words can be piped into your head.  

Driving through Vegas I heard “I would like to go back to Area 51, it was nicer there.” For some reason my unfailing allegiance to someone I walked away from 30 years ago began to be rekindled and I did not understand why. It’s because we were taking  again. MKULTRA explains it all.  

When I heard I would like to go back to Area 51 it was nicer there, I didn’t understand what it was.  Was it an actual Alien, was an alien being held in Area 52 and communicating to me?  Was John being held there?  

 

Ally Carter talks about how the CIA MKULTRA’s in Hollywood can literally be turned on and off, with frequency, with codes.  We have watched Lady Gaga at one point get turned off literally.

When I was homeless I went to rescue a girl who needed my help.  I drove by a sign that said NSA and I was angry, I drove by Langley and I was absolutely livid.  I became so angry my arms locked on the steering wheel and I thought my head was going to spin off.  

Do I have technology in me, that is sending signals, because these days, you don’t need voice to skull, just 5G, your phone, or your DNA can be targetted. I wrote I think I have GPS in me, meaning implants tracking me.

I remember telling George don’t ever fucking ask me where I am again, I’m sure you can track me with software, because I have trackers in me.

 

WHAT IS A BETA SEX SLAVE AND WHY ARE MKULTRAS LOYAL TO THE POINT OF DEATH?

 

A beta sex slave is created, through trauma based mind control.  Being raped as a child, is a way to break the mind of the child into compliance.  Being drugged, being starved, being isolated, being controlled in all aspects of your life. All these things happened to me.

 

WHAT IS A HANDLER?

Many people think they know what a handler is and they have no idea. 

Handlers handle you.  They handle your career, they handle your finances, either enhancing them or making sure you do not rise to a financial position in which you can ever leave them, or speak out against them. They are literally in control of whether you eat or breathe. They can kill you and bring you back and kill you and bring you back, creating a trauma bond that will never break.

 

They can advance you to political positions, to positions of fame in the entertainment industry, and to positions of power in the global cabal.  I believe my father was beholden to the NAZI regime and was working with Joseph Mengele, and/or his people, and he sold himself to Satan.  I did not sell myself to Satan at any point.

I was trying to figure out a cabal hierarchy at one point..and inserted myself into the triangles they created.

 

I know I was also very disappointed to find out that the Kings and Queens altered the bible and I stopped praying for a couple of weeks and threw my bibles out, because I was angry.

 

 

HANDLERS COME BACK FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE

 

John knew at one point he lost me, when I left the band, yet he continually came back in my life, even after I left the band. When I was still in the band I remember praying at the Mission Valley Marriot and asking God to reveal him to me.  He called me on the phone when I was in the tub.  Yes there was a phone in the bathroom, it was pretty cool.  I said "John I was just praying asking God about you and you called me on the phone." I also felt like my room had cameras in it on certain occassions and that my liasions were being filmed.  I decided then I was going to have to leave the band.  I had left the sliding doors open when I took the bath. I was on the fourth floor. I entered the room and I saw that two doves had flown in the room.  I thought that was very odd. Still haven’t figured out that one out, but I guess it meant John and I were paired as children. 

 

John came back to get me on several ocassions.  I moved on and married Sam and did not think about John again, except  each time he came back into my life, until 30 years later after I left Sam.  I got back in touch with John to help me with an orchestra leader who asked me to represent him.  I told Alan I don’t want to pull this rabbit out of the hat, but I did.

The bond, for me, started again.  It was an unbreakable bond, as though my mind had been programmed and controlled, which it had, for my entire life.

 

I am a writer, so I started journaling and researching when I left Sam, my last husband.  Sam died Jan 6, 2018, a very auspicious day in our history, Jan 6 that is, not 2018.

 

Here are some of the journal pieces.  I left out the parts about the XFiles, when Maulder left the series and John Doggett and Monica Reys were introduced into the series.  I will write about that later.

 

JOURNAL PIECES

 

 

I heard a voice say I would like to go back to Area 51.  I didn’t know what it was.  I said I will go back to Area 51, is John there?  As far as I know, I was never with the CIA; however I MOST assuredly WAS involved with CIA projects, under MKULTRA.

 

 

I note, later reading my entry, this is mind control, These are the voices that I am hearing, while I am also getting messages on WhatsApp, from various people and on messenger who say they are agents sent from John.  Maybe they never knew him, maybe they were actually MKULTRA programmers, I can not say.

 

I heard: I am God Penny, I have many many mansions.  MAC lives everywhere. 

 

This is something that the VOICE OF GOD, or VOICE to SKULL would emulate. It's agent of war purpose is to get people in war to lay down their weapons because they believe that they are hearing God.

 

Also, if under MKULTRA, this is what would be said to you if you were drugged, or if you had become gangstalked as a targetted individual, because you were asking questions like why do I look like Irene Schoenbein, who married Josef (Joseph) Mengele and why does John look like Joseph and why does my murdered brother David look like their son Rolfe?

I remember thinking I need to start a blog there is safety in disclosure.

 

 

My mother’s maiden name was DARLINGTON, Mildred Lucille Darlington. Love you a ton.

 

MIND CONTROL:

 

Let’s say John had nothing to do with any of this, maybe he was absolutely innocent, but my head was being filled with these thoughts.  NWO first, we fight together.  That's something the CIA would say-- not me. I was a singer -- not CIA.

 

Amy Holem is on our show, she actually does digitial audio forensics, a laborious task and she stated to me that it sounded like something the CIA would say: 

WE are skull and bones, we are Virginia and that’s what I was hearing. I’m not skull and bones, I am not Virginia, but Langley is synonymous with CIA.

Hence when I travelled by the CIA I was totally PISSED.

 

I wrote: I will trick for him, it is my pleasure.  A person who was in and out of my life, but for some reason, was still embedded in my mind.  A "John" is the name a hooker uses, they are also called tricks. I was never a prostitute or hooker, but yet I write this terminology.

Why? This is 30 plus years later, as I am coming out of MKULTRA.

 

I write: John is my favorite HUSBAND.  

I told Steve when I left Sam and I called him: "You were my favorite husband." 

Steve said, "you were my favorite wife, oh wait, you were my ONLY wife". John was not my husband,  yet I felt a bond when we met like we were like husband and wife.  Uncertain at to why.

 

 

I say I have GPS in my body, I feel the thumping.  So I KNOW I am being monitored, I know thoughts are being pumped in my mind that are not mine.

 

I am being told John is a GOD in this world.  The John I know, is not a GOD, he is a flawed person, just as I am.  So who is running this operation to tell me this?

 

I then talk about Tony, who stole my laptop with my brother David’s unpublished manuscript in it and who knows Durrell and also Bill Hybels who was the pastor at Willow Creek church. Bill Hybels retired after allegations of sexual misconduct with his church members. His entire elder board withdrew on my birthday Aug 11, 2018. Thank you God.

 

Tony, was also most assuredly a handler.  Tony took me to the airport to fly to see Durrell. Tony picked me up from the airport when I flew back. Tony was talking to Durrell. Tony also threatened me you should not talk about John, as though something bad would happen to me and as if he personally knew John.

Tony drove me to the Green Mill where the Orchestra Leader Alan Gresik plays.  Alan asked me to be his manager, and I sent his promo to John. Everybody knows everybody.

 

Tony took me for a walk outside the Green Mill. I was literally seeing demons at the Green Mill, where Al Capone used to frequent.  Pretty sure he killed people there, Al Capone, not Tony.

I think my grandmother sang at the Green Mill; I believe she knew May Capone, Al’s wife. That’s probably why the Darlington’s moved to Miami, because Al Capone lived in Palm Island in Miami.

There are tunnels under the Green Mill and all over Chicago.  As I walk through the streets on Broadway everything is eerily silent.  I see a mile high wave overtake the entire city like in the movie the Day After Tomorrow.

 

I go back inside and I ask where is the ocean.  They say there is no ocean just big lakes.  I say ok, how far are we from the Lake, they say the Navy pier isn’t far from here.  I try to figure out how a great lake can form into a huge tsunami and overtake the city of Chicago.

 

I am literally now seeing demons and spirits and having full on visions.

 

When I was researching family ties with the Baumgartner name I was talking to Durrell.  He invited me to be a snow bird and come to Lake Havasu to visit when it snowed in Chicago.  I was like what's a snow bird.  He said you will know when it starts snowing.  I was homeless at the time, and nothing else would have gotten me to go see Durrell, but I thought, he’s been married, he had children, he is Christian.  He is not a Christian, he is a fake Christian and he's the same psycho he always was.

 

When I was in Lake Havasu with him for approximately 40 days and 40 nights, he told me “I always wanted to act in Dantes Inferno” I said I did not know you were an actor Durrell.  I went to acting school and studied under Stella Adler. Durrell did not.  However, Marlon Brando and Robert De Niro did.  They both turned out to be scum of the earth.  Wonder wtf happened to them.

 

Robert Davi said he knew Stella and she was wonderful to him.  I think Robert is an amazing person, writer, actor and singer.  He sings better than Frank Sinatra.  He was on our show the Awake Nation, and he is a GREAT Patriot, whom I have come to love and respect.

 

I learn alot from Robert Davi, he's a kind man who tries not to judge people unless they are absolutely lying assholes.  If you are not following him on X please do.  He said Whoppie Goldburg was always nice to him.  It's a weird business, Hollywood.  Whoppie is on John's client list. She was nice to Trump, until she wasn’t.  Her on air persona is just really vicious, and I will never watch the view.  It’s like deciding to spend an hour in hell.

 

Re the Joseph Lengele comment.  I was getting a lot of people saying they were generals on Fake Book, one was General Milley and another was Joseph L. Lengyel, a retired four star general who served at the 28th chief of the National Guard Bureau from Aug 2016 to Aug 2020.  Someone with his profile came to me, and ran a psyop on me.

 

Not only was I being gangstalked on Facebook, and Whats App but I was being MKULTRAed by Pastors, by people in churches, by people who knew my handlers, and people who said they worked for the agency as well as having intercessions with actual agents I believe had software to access me. MKULTRA is broadbased.

 

I write: Maybe this is a run thru, to see if the storms work (storm technology, also I started a storm); to see if human recievers are recieving their frequencies, to see if they can confuse and manipulate the population.

 

I write: We are the government we have trillions of dollars - so definitely not my thoughts because I was surviving on a bagel a day and when I asked Durrell for 20 dollars to eat, he said no.

 

When I was in Lake Havasu at Durrell's I went to a church where they called their contributors KINGS.  

I had a vision in Branson of a tornado; I told Durrell about it.  It was John, Durrell, Tommy Smith and two others in the vision.  I told Durrell about the vision as I was trying to figure it out; he didn’t deny the vision, he simply said "I don’t like being second Penny."

I was writing Bradford and Valentine but began to write a book called my FOUR KINGS, in which GOD is my king, and the other KINGS are my handlers.

 

My brother Rob, had my laptop when I was in the crazy house and erased all communications between John and I, and erased the book I started to write, MY FOUR KINGS  Because it would have been about Handlers.

He did not erase Bradford and Valentine. I had it in a different program called Schrivner. 

 

 

I write: GOV of DEFENSE (is that the agency I am talking to?  Is this CIA, or is this an ALIEN faction) I thought it was the name of the counsel I was talking to telepathically. In retrospect, I think it was our freaking government.

I write about DOG: Defense office of Government ( Now DOGE has been suggested by ELON MUSK. 

Was this neurolink tech in me? Was I getting information from the government? I write Elohim, was it actually Elon I heard? Like when Nostradamus said Hisler would murder the world? Was it actually Hitler and he heard the name wrong? 

The US Dept of Government Efficiency has just been proposed in 2024, by ELON MUSK. DOGE.

 

This particular entry was when I was at Willow Creek and talking to John, Durrell, Tony, George, and Sam, because it mentions Hurricane Harvey, which I helped out gathering supplies for which they put on trucks.  

Hybel’s taskforce asked "do you want to be on camera because we are doing a live from the parking lot." I was on that live.

I was figuring out who my handlers were.

I also found out I write in Code, we carry codes and information. Ask Cathy O’Brien.

 

Still in communication with handlers.  I have two middle names.  Lou (which could be short for my mothers middle name Lucille, or Louise, and Ann was my baptismal name, which was very important to me.  I kept it in my name and by 6th grade it was replaced by initials.  I kept the name for a reason.  I have always used the initials on everything I have written.  So it will take me back to the church, because bad things happened to me that I need to figure out.  I am missing a lot of time.  Some times people get tattoos to remember things, I write songs, and write words, that I hear or that I am thinking or that I am imagining. I am a writer and have been since I was a child.

 

So I am referring to myself under Ann, which is my name, and very possibly a programmed name as well under MKULTRA.

 

The Bob remark:

I went back to Costa Mesa in 2017 when I was homeless.  I visited Bob Bauman.  I said "Bob, I don’t believe in Aliens, the only illegal ALIEN here is SATAN."

 

I then change my mind.  I went from being Skully to Maulder very quickly.

 

I write: "John said some will come to test you".

Knowing what I know now, I don't know if that was actually John, or if that was the CIA. I suspect it was 5G. Maybe it was an actual warning, which is for sure true.  

Honey pots, people who believe Jesus didn’t die on the cross, people who assassinate your character, but can never assassinate your faith. 

Some will come to test you. That can assuredly mean mannnny things.

 

 

George in this writing is George Rodriguez who knew my blood type and who said he was sent by the Agency.  He says to me “I will marry you” but I am not interested in George, but I know I am a trained BETA sex slave because I do what George wants.  He is the only one coming to see me in the Crazy House.  He takes me out to have sex with me in hotels and takes me to eat and to Walmart.  It's literally a break from people trying to kill me. He tells me he knows John.  I don’t know if he does or he doesn’t.  He would be another handler sent to handle me, and to use me.

 

He wants to know do I love John.  Actually, to be quite honest I don’t know John, I never knew who he was and I still don't. 

I was able to leave him, and it was hard.  But I tell George, yes I love John.  

Then one day George comes to get me but he's very late.  When he gets there he apologizes. He says his tire BLEW UP on the freeway and he almost died.  I believe him because he literally smells like burnt tire.  I go out the the car and the blown up tire is in the trunk.  George says I almost died.  I was able to get off the freeway.

 

He tells me John is watching me, so if I have sex John knows.  Some total bullshit, but focusing me on something that absolutely isn’t real, testing my loyalty, which I have nothing to be loyal to.  

 

What is a JOHN?  In hooker terms a JOHN is a trick, a person you charge for sex.  

I am literally being mind controlled by a team of people back to JOHN.   Mind Control -

 “There is nothing I wouldn’t do for John, DIE, LIVE, FUCK, KILL — that my friend is MIND CONTROL and total control.  I write its not MKULTRA, I am not hypnotized, its not slave, it is love.

THAT is THE VERY nature of MIND CONTROL, which has nothing to do with love.

 

I don’t know this person.  I had an affair with him 30 years ago.  He was my manager and my handler.  So I then question why 30 years later am I back in touch with him, back in the same predicament I was when I was in his band.

 

ULTRA mind control, reinforces feelings that are not real.  PROGRAMS so strong, that you BELIEVE they are LOVE, not MKULTRA.

If you were to MKULTRA someone you would want to attack that thing that means the most to them, LOVE, compassion, truth. How long is that falsity perpetrated?  Until GOD breaks it for you. Until you understand it.  The psychological operation is meant to be undetectable.

 

This journal was in 2017.  I was then sent to a crazy house for a year.  George was my handler while I was in the crazy house and George tried to keep the reinforcement of this false reality.  

 

I loved Durrell, I loved Steve, I loved John, I loved Sam. I no longer “love” these people. 

Steve is dead.  Sam is dead.  Durrell is still alive. John is still alive.

When I went back to see Durrell in Dec of 2016- Feb 2017.  Durrell took me to a casino and as I went thru the doors the emotions I felt were so overwhelming I almost fainted.  I saw the faces of all my agents and I then remembered how much I loved Durrell when I was 17.  

When I started talking to Durrell in October of 2016, I asked him to send me a button down blue shirt with polo cologne on it, because it would remind me of when I slept in his shirt when he was away, when I was 17 and when I was absolutely loyal to him because I loved him then. He was my world.

Olfactory (smell) Music (sounds frequency) Colors, Code Words or phrases engender memories and create false scenarios.

 

You CAN break MKULTRA.  You need to be AWARE. Pray, they want you to stop praying.  I stopped praying for a couple of weeks when I was homeless.  But I started again.  When I left Sam I couldn’t cry for two months. I was numb at discovering who he was.   

 

I had to get off all the drugs he had me put on and I literally dragged my not working left leg behind me into the truck that I had purchased, with my own money. Sam tried to take that too.  He threatened to have me arrested and thrown in a crazy house and made homeless.  Then at one point he wanted me to come back. He asked me when I was in Branson, are you walking again.  My response was "yes I am walking again, mother fucker and I never want to see you again as long as I am alive."

They want everything.  Your house, your clothes, your phone, your music, your writing, your photos, your money, your reputation, your friends, your future earnings, your past earnings, your very life, your soul. They are destructors. This is psychopathic to try to completely destroy someone, and to believe you own another person.

 

I no longer love Durrell.  I feel very sorry for Durrell.  He is an angry, pill popping, cheating, lying two timing, double dealing mean womanizing mistreating, controlling psychopath.  I also believe he has known John since he was a child because he DROVE me to JOHN’s high school.

 

Maybe John is MKULTRA.  I don’t know.  I feel sadness for each of these men. Herein is the difference: I can feel.  I can feel compassion, I have a heart, I can cry tears, I can forgive, and I can move on in my life. You have seen some of the entries from a journal that I wrote.  I left many journals behind in my lifetime.

 

By the way, the journals that I wrote, are my intellectual property and work product which I used to write my blog and they are published on my web as well.  These journals are MY life, no one else’s. They are also protected by copyright, it would be like leaving book note behind. They don't belong to the person finding them. The people that sold Ashley Biden's diary went to jail.

I started writing my blog in 2016 and publish my web in 2017 and all notes are work product, protected under copyright as stated on my web.  This post will be reproduced on my web and on Medium, Substack and other areas.

 

Additionally CYBERSTALKING is a CRIME. If you are breaching my copyright, and/or cyberstalking me, please cease and desist.  

 

 

WHAT IS MKULTRA, WHY DOES THE CIA USE IT TO CREATE PUPPET LEADERS?

 

An acronym for MKULTRA is Manufactured KILLERS Utilizing Leathal Tradecraft Requiring ASSASSINATIONS.

 

If you can capture someone’s heart, you can control them.  CONTROL (MIND KONTROL) CONTROL THE MIND, control the heart, get that person to do anything, DIE, LIVE, FUCK, KILL.  That IS MKULTRA.  Reinforce a falsehood, 

 

 

CANDACE OWENS STATES THAT KAMALA HARRIS IS MKULTRA

 

Candace Owens is an amazing woman and a very deep and dogged researcher.  She has unearth more about Kamala Harris childhood and background than anyone else.  Candace does incredibly deep interviews.  She contacted Kamala Harris’ relatives and she believes that HARRIS is MKULTRA.  I concur with her assessment.

 

 

Will add the videos shortly.